I didn’t want to live.
And it wasn’t that I wanted to die. I didn’t. But then I had no desire to live. It’s a strange feeling you know. To see that slipping of desire. To see it leave, dissolve slowly into a messy nothingness. Fade to black, as they say.
This piece of work here, she walked me back to life. She appeared quietly, unasked and sat with me, mostly in silence, while I pieced back my urge to make music. She brought me beautiful friends, took me to pretty places, introduced me to masters, brought me melodies from afar. All the while she remained patient, like a loving mother. She opened the door and took me within.
And there was a riot there.
This album, my dearest listener, is just a recording of that riot within. Its called Shakkar, a metaphor for happiness. Making it felt to me like how it felt eating a sweet as a child. Nothing profound. Nothing nuanced. Nothing too complicated. Just good old fashioned Ah ! joy. Joy of the moment.
I am still high. I hope you will be too.
When lost in darkness and lost for answers, I hope one or more of these songs will help you find light and a way back to life.
Raghu Dixit
To my Amma and Appa.
Wish you were here.
'Shakkarpari', meaning 'Sugar Fairy', is a story about a little girl who steals sugar from the market only to distribute it to those who have never experienced sweetness.
She didn’t have lofty ambitions.
For her it was simple – to make people around her just a little happier.
There are sugar-fairies around each of us. That someone who ceaselessly desires to see us smile. Shakkarpari.
The purveyor of joy.
Lyrics:
Neeraj Rajawat
Acoustic Guitar and Vocals: Raghu Dixit
Banjo: Béla Fleck
Drums: Joe Jacob
Bass: Josy John
Bazooki: Sanjay Kumar
Violin: Akshay Ganesh
Mandola: John Paul
Acoustic Guitar: Raghu Dixit
Khanjira: Sunaad Anoor
Percussions: Pramath Kiran
Main Mandola hook contributed by Naveen Thomas
Alemaari is a Nomad. Wanderer. Seeker. Khana Badosh. But think of it – aren’t we all nomads, constantly drifting through the alleys of our lives? Traveling far and deep into ourselves, in search of all that is within us – the good, the bad and the ugly. Turn by turn, we meet them all. make friends with some, peace with others. Because in this drift, we need them all as our oarsmen.
Lyrics:
Kiran Kaverappa
Acoustic Guitar and Vocals: Raghu Dixit
Veena: Rajhesh Vaidhya
Drums: Joe Jacob
Bass: Josy John
Electric Guitar and Banjo: John Paul
Violin: Akshay Ganesh
Acoustic Guitar: Raghu Dixit
Tavil: Tavil Raja
Indian and Latin Percussions: Pramath Kiran
For centuries, the color of one's skin has been discriminatory idiocy. Priyotoma exalts the beauty of a dusky girl through the enamored eyes of a lover for who, she is the “sunshine of his mornings”. We are all beautiful and perfect exactly the way we are! Don’t let anyone tell you otherwise.
Lyrics: Neeraj Rajawat
Acoustic Guitar and Vocals: Raghu Dixit
Drums: Joe Jacob
Bass: Josy John
Dotara, Banjo, Acoustic Guitars: John Paul
Violin: Akshay Ganesh
Bangla Folk Percussions: Sudipto Chakraborty
Percussions recorded by Rupojjwal Majumder at Studio AVS, Kolkata
Rhythm Session Editing: Souptik Mazumder and Achin Sarkar
Lyrics: Neeraj Rajawat
Vocals: Raghu Dixit
Sitar: Purbayan Chatterjee
Drums: Joe Jacob
Bass: Josy John
Acoustic and Electric Guitars: John Paul
Dholak: Shashikant Sharma, Sharafat Hussain, Shridhar Chari
Choir: Vishvi (vocal arrangement), Aranyak, Rahul, Rishabh, Rishi, Samyukta, Shikha, Zannia
Dholak Ensemble recorded by Anand Dambre at Lata Mangeshkar Studios, Mumbai
Sitar ideation jams with Chirag Katti
Lyrics:
Neeraj Rajawat (Hindi)
Acoustic Guitar and Vocals: Raghu Dixit
Drums: Joe Jacob
Bass: Josy John
Cavaquinho, Charango and Electric Guitars: John Paul
Trumpets: Jesse Sadoc
Saxophones: Danilo Sinna
Trombones: Rafael Rocha
Horn Section arranged and recorded by Rafael Rocha, Sao Paolo, Brazil
Latin Percussions: Pramath Kiran
Vocal Scatting Solo: Varijashree Venugopal
Horn Section programmed ideation by Jathin Dharshan
Lyrics: The Late Dr. Da Ra Bendre
Acoustic Guitar and Vocals: Raghu Dixit
Drums: Joe Jacob
Bass: Josy John
Guitars: John Paul
Trumpets: Jesse Sadoc
Saxophones: Danilo Sinna
Trombones: Rafael Rocha
Horn Section arranged and recorded by Rafael Rocha, Sao Paolo, Brazil
Tappattai Percussions: Shruthiraj, Derick, Kiran and David
Choir: Sharan Aiyappa, Vishwanath Haveri, Keerthana Vijaykumar, Harsha Ranjini, Madhura Balaji, Sunidhi Ganesh
Tappattai recorded by Hariharan at 20 dB Studios, Chennai
Rhythm Session Editing: Souptik Mazumder and Achin Sarkar
Lyrics: Vasuki Vaibhav
Acoustic Guitar and Vocals: Raghu Dixit
Drums: Joe Jacob
Gimbri and Bass: Michael League
Electric Guitars: John Paul
Dholki, Bass Dhol, Sambal and Dimdi: Vijay Chavan
Morsing, Duff, Halgi, Chanda: Shashank Hadkar
Duff Halgi Chanda: Tushar Shirsat
Choir: Sharan Aiyappa, Vishwanath Haveri, Keerthana Vijaykumar, Harsha Ranjini, Madhra Balaji, Sunidhi Ganesh
Maratha Percussions recorded by Avdhoot Wadkar at Ajivasan Studios, Mumbai
Rhythm Session Editing: Souptik Mazumder and Achin Sarkar
My father was a stay-at-home-husband while my mother was the earning member of the family. I rarely saw them in an intimate moment - holding hands, having a hug or even a laugh, going out to a movie or vacation… nothing! As a kid, I grew up thinking my dad was a loser! My dad passed away when I was 16 and the angst and opinion against him, stayed on.
30 years later, post Covid, while having a quiet moment with my mom over a cup of tea, I asked, ‘why did you marry this man? Where was love for you in all this?’
She smiled faintly and said ‘I am the luckiest woman in the whole world. Between every two breaths, that man had only love for me. Just think about one day in your dad’s life and you will see why I just said that’.
It was only then I tried to see my dad in a different light.
My dad suffered from severe depression due to a trauma he had been through earlier in his life because of which he never could hold a job. So mom asked him to stay at home and take care of himself. With time my dad started taking over all the house hold responsibilities.
From heating the water early morning for everyone’s bath, to cooking, packing our lunch boxes, to cleaning the house, washing vessels and clothes, making sure we two kids were fed well and did our home work and so on …. all of this while ignoring the snide remarks and comments our neighbours and relatives threw at us. My dad quietly went about his routine, making my mom’s life a bit easier.
He always displayed immense respect for my mother.
I cried endlessly that day and made peace with my father.
I realised, while I thought he gave up on life, he was actually being a super hero without a cape, fighting all the storms within and giving his hundred percent to his family!
This song is about that safe place, between every two breaths, where my dad had only love and respect for my mother... where they both were intimate in their own beautiful quiet way!
Lyrics:
Neeraj Rajawat
Vocals: Raghu Dixit
Nylon String Guitar, Charango: John Paul
Violin, Viola and Cello: Rithu Vysakh
Violin Solo: Casey Driessen